The place where I dissolve my inner conflicts. I’m not just my Ego

I have few opinions about myself, as I should be, as I’d love to be, maybe as I am. I can’t really define myself, but in some occasion, I can clearly see that part of me that I call my Ego and its double. This series is a representation of my inner life, the encounter of my intimate parts.The first is the socially correct self: scared from others’ judgment, it absolutely doesn’t want to show alterations in its state of mind and minimizes its emotions. In my photo it faces a second expression of my Ego which is trying to avoid, its counterpart represented by a strong emotion that is kept alive by a hidden and continuous thought. Paradoxically the former wont’ survive without the last. I live in a strong inner conflict until they don’t meet, often not knowing it. When I allow the antagonistic selves to encounter, I am firstly frightened from the dreadful clash that inevitably happens, then I slowly accept my inadequacy and fragility.
Being at the same time the photographer behind the camera and the two characters allows me to represent in the material world the inner space where this encounter happens, a place not belonging to it but still existing and real. This space is the place where I dissolve my inner conflicts.

The two characters facing are both self-portraits put together in post-production.

1. Depression
2. Huffiness
3. Rage
4. Sexuality